Mind-less Bullshit Michaela Must Share

I have been wanting to try. Its called Ana Boot Camp Diet, or otherwise known as the ABC diet. If you guys have not heard of it, its a 50 day long diet that literally reduces your calorie count to less than 800 per day. I find it relatively easy to do. It is to be said that there will be dramatic weight loss, which is what i want. I know no other way to do it, working out will take to long to see results and i really do not have the time to do it.

Of course like any other reason to diet, theres a story behind it. Call me stupid, but I just think that sometimes my boyfriend doesnt find me attractive. It all came about when i needed to use his phone for internet when it shows up that he just looked up porn recently. I mean it wasnt just any old porn, it was specific. emo/scene girls. now i mean if it was general porn, that would be alright with me. but it just shows he has a… preference. And I do not fit that preference. I am not an scene girl at all, i mean years ago i would be called that, but i have grown up from that. I even talked to him and he said that his sexual preference was scene girls. 

This really gives me no option than to change myself. I used to tease my hair, i could always start doing that again. I could start acting full of energy and childish ways, no prob. i still have all my clothes back from those days, i could simply start wearing them again. but theres one problem, these girls are thin. I always viewed myself as thick, i have Double Ds, thick thighs and hips. Personally I have nothing wrong with that, its just that I feel like he doesnt like it. 

Another thing, I have always thought i was i guess too fat for him. he only weighs 125 pounds and is my height. However, i am a good 50 pounds more than him, so sex to me feels awkward sometimes. Being on top, makes me feel like he’s uncomfortable, as if i am crushing him. He says its fine, but i know it isnt.

So heres my dilemma. Diet and change myself, or… not? I cannot possibly sit here all the time feeling the way i do. somethings gotta change. open for comments and suggestions.!

Well ABC diet, old wardrobe, and hairspray here I come!!!

oh well, i guess everyone has their tastes. (-_-)

his seems to be for trash…. 

my posts aren’t “original”. because for some reason my lovely boyfriend decided to make a tumblr and now he is bragging about how he has a more followers than me with 3 days. Really? I had no idea this was a competition. ha, i wont even turn it into one. it really doesnt phase me how many followers i have, its who follows me. i may be uninteresting, but theres absolutely no reason to rub it in my face. 

that i disconnected my Tumblr from my Facebook. I swear, I was blowing up peoples feed x)